I've been worn out lately. Absolutely exhausted.
Every day, I visualize my list of things to do for the day.
Do the laundry.
Watch what I eat.
Actually exercise (for once).
Don't forget that quiet time and Bible study!
Run the errands (go to the bank, run to the grocery store, etc.)
Write someone a card; be an encouragement.
Be more patient.
And it goes on and on, not including my to-do list at work or school.
It's tiring. And the rest of life is the same. I have my list of goals and things to accomplish. I want to get into law school, I want to develop my character over all, I want to be healthy.
I want to be accepted and loved for me.
But the question is: how do I earn that?
Here's the hard part: I don't. My list is one of perfection and seriously unattainable for me. Sure, I write it out as vague goals that all sound good to do. But inside, it's so much more complicated.
I need to be THIS weight and size.
I need to get THIS score on my exams and classes.
I need to get into THIS school and do THIS job.
Otherwise, I'm a failure.
I can't do it. I can't do all of it, I can barely do any of it.
But isn't that the point? I can't do it on my own. And I can't earn perfection.
That's where grace comes in.